My fight is less than a month away....part of me doesn't want to believe it...it hasn't sunk in yet. I'm so used to getting injured pre-fight I don't want my heart to break again.
I've been burning the candle on both ends lately...preparing for my hula recital this Saturday, April 17th has been challening trying to train for my fight as well. My mind wanders off to personal matters at moments, but I have to remind myself to focus and get it together. I hope I'm ready by the time my fight comes around. I hope I leave it all on the matt, not hold back, and apply what I've learned.
Last night I sparred with my Che'lu. He kept apologizing everytime he would hit me hard. I just reassure to keep going and I'm fine. I feel like I've progressed as far as sparring. I have a better control of my emotions and I believe that should be one of the very parts that build your foundation. It was a good sparring session I believe. I pushed my body to go through beatings but still tried to focus. I need to improve, I always need to improve, but I feel reassured. I have a good team that supports me. Fighting has been the only thing that has ever fought its way to stay in my life...total love affair.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
Adjust and Respond
I have often found so many things that I learned with muay thai and jiu jitsu to apply to my everyday life. Ironically one of the things that I have focused on with training for my upcoming tournament is adjustment.
Adjust. Adjust. Adjust. Adjust.
You head into a situation with a game plan: jab, cross, uppercut, body kick. Then all of a sudden your opponent throws an unforseen punch, too far out of reach, or too close. So we've been working on a lot of adjustment, don't throw just to throw...keep an eye on your target, watch how they move, watch for an opening, adjust, and respond.
Training is hard. It's not just hard on the body, it's hard on the mind, it's hard on the heart. It forces you to dig deep inside when you are convinced you have nothing left to give...take that deep breath you never knew you had left in and give it all you got. You're already in it, so push through it, break the barrier, and discover a part of yourself that was there all along.
I believe in small significances.
Adjust. Adjust. Adjust. Adjust.
You head into a situation with a game plan: jab, cross, uppercut, body kick. Then all of a sudden your opponent throws an unforseen punch, too far out of reach, or too close. So we've been working on a lot of adjustment, don't throw just to throw...keep an eye on your target, watch how they move, watch for an opening, adjust, and respond.
Training is hard. It's not just hard on the body, it's hard on the mind, it's hard on the heart. It forces you to dig deep inside when you are convinced you have nothing left to give...take that deep breath you never knew you had left in and give it all you got. You're already in it, so push through it, break the barrier, and discover a part of yourself that was there all along.
I believe in small significances.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Scratching the Surface
I'm barely scratching the surface, but I have a feeling that once I break the mold, it's going to snowball and things will line up pretty quickly.
Cardio will be added at least 3x a week.
Diet will be watched more carefully.
Drills, Drills, Drills baby until they become instinct.
May 8th, I'm coming at you hard. Even though this may be a tournament, this means so much more to me than you may ever know. I feel sorry for the girl already.
Cardio will be added at least 3x a week.
Diet will be watched more carefully.
Drills, Drills, Drills baby until they become instinct.
May 8th, I'm coming at you hard. Even though this may be a tournament, this means so much more to me than you may ever know. I feel sorry for the girl already.
Friday, February 19, 2010
sloth
Dear laziness:
I need you to give me my space right now because it seems that I cannot do anything productive. So if you could take a vacation or something, that would be awesome.
Thanks!
Love,
Fee
I need you to give me my space right now because it seems that I cannot do anything productive. So if you could take a vacation or something, that would be awesome.
Thanks!
Love,
Fee
Monday, February 1, 2010
Aggression
I have been off the grid for awhile, I will admit. I have finally tucked my stubborness away for about 3 weeks and contemplated about certain factors in my life I believe would have an affect in the results of 2010. Sometimes the best thing to do is "forget how you feel and remember what you deserve." I know I say this all the time and it's probably because I need to follow my own advice. I believe that each individual is a good person and it is society that corrupts them, molds and shapes them into the human beings that they are today.
I am blessed to say that I have friends that support me, family that loves me, and a coach who won't get off my ass about getting back into the gym. He knows me too well to know I am an emotionally cold hearted passionate stubborn person. He knows what goes on in my head fighting wise and my fears with my injury. Nonetheless, I still get reminder calls about coming back to the gym and visits at work to remind me where I belong....in that gym..on that matt, showing my worth.
Too much built up aggression that I need to let out.....oh I am so looking forward to tonight.
I am blessed to say that I have friends that support me, family that loves me, and a coach who won't get off my ass about getting back into the gym. He knows me too well to know I am an emotionally cold hearted passionate stubborn person. He knows what goes on in my head fighting wise and my fears with my injury. Nonetheless, I still get reminder calls about coming back to the gym and visits at work to remind me where I belong....in that gym..on that matt, showing my worth.
Too much built up aggression that I need to let out.....oh I am so looking forward to tonight.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Saturday
Saturday was the first time since my injury that I have stepped on the mat and threw down.
My lungs were on fire just jump roping for 2 minutes, but I didn't care. I grinning from ear to ear just to be able to do a simple thing like that. It's always disappointing to myself being out of shape, but what can I do? When I'm injured, I'm injured. I can't push my body farther than it can go; stubborness is not going to help the healing process, but determination and patience does.
I did some technical drills to regain form with my coach. We also worked on strengthening my quads since they're really weak at the moment. It's all about rebuilding...just like a phoenix...arising from the ashes.
My upper torso is sore. I can feel it deep in my lungs and especially my ribs....I feel like this is a spiritual moment. 2009 was all about putting myself out there, so I see it fitting now that I look back about my injury. Injuring my knee made me more conscious on how I walk and how I take care of myself, each step I took I had to re-evaluate. 2010 I had to go through physical therapy and push myself despite the pain. Everyday I found something new to appreciate and I realized how much I took simple things like walking up the stairs or bending my knee all the way for granted. I had to relearn how to walk.
2010 I believe is my year for a journey of rebirth..or more like finding the path of rebirth. I believe this goes for all aspects in my life: family (making more time for them), friends (sifting to see who I should surround myself with), school (getting things accomplished), writing (pushing my electrical thought neurons to write consistently), and fighting (staying healthy, injury free, and finally getting to that first fight.)
So here I go...2010 I hope you're ready for me
My lungs were on fire just jump roping for 2 minutes, but I didn't care. I grinning from ear to ear just to be able to do a simple thing like that. It's always disappointing to myself being out of shape, but what can I do? When I'm injured, I'm injured. I can't push my body farther than it can go; stubborness is not going to help the healing process, but determination and patience does.
I did some technical drills to regain form with my coach. We also worked on strengthening my quads since they're really weak at the moment. It's all about rebuilding...just like a phoenix...arising from the ashes.
My upper torso is sore. I can feel it deep in my lungs and especially my ribs....I feel like this is a spiritual moment. 2009 was all about putting myself out there, so I see it fitting now that I look back about my injury. Injuring my knee made me more conscious on how I walk and how I take care of myself, each step I took I had to re-evaluate. 2010 I had to go through physical therapy and push myself despite the pain. Everyday I found something new to appreciate and I realized how much I took simple things like walking up the stairs or bending my knee all the way for granted. I had to relearn how to walk.
2010 I believe is my year for a journey of rebirth..or more like finding the path of rebirth. I believe this goes for all aspects in my life: family (making more time for them), friends (sifting to see who I should surround myself with), school (getting things accomplished), writing (pushing my electrical thought neurons to write consistently), and fighting (staying healthy, injury free, and finally getting to that first fight.)
So here I go...2010 I hope you're ready for me
Monday, January 4, 2010
2010
I haven't posted in a bit and maybe that's a bad thing, lol.
Physical therapy is doing pretty good, but I must admit I been slacking a little on it. It's a New Year though and it's time to start hitting the ground running. Starting today no more slacking on doing therapy. I'm gonna wait until the end of the week to start going to the gym since my tattoo is still scabbing. I'm very anal about the healing process...everything has to go a certain way. Rehab exercises this week, bicycle on the weekend, and I'm going to test out my new handy dandy "Iron Gym" that I got for Christmas. Daddio knows me too well =)
This part of the healing process is probably one of the most dangerous parts. Because I don't feel any pain I can overexert my knee and end up jackin it up more...slowly but surely I'll get there. I should be seeing my surgeon specialist soon...we'll see what he says. At least I don't have to worry about the financials anymore. I should have everything straightened out by spring of this year.
This is gonna be a good year...I can feel it
Physical therapy is doing pretty good, but I must admit I been slacking a little on it. It's a New Year though and it's time to start hitting the ground running. Starting today no more slacking on doing therapy. I'm gonna wait until the end of the week to start going to the gym since my tattoo is still scabbing. I'm very anal about the healing process...everything has to go a certain way. Rehab exercises this week, bicycle on the weekend, and I'm going to test out my new handy dandy "Iron Gym" that I got for Christmas. Daddio knows me too well =)
This part of the healing process is probably one of the most dangerous parts. Because I don't feel any pain I can overexert my knee and end up jackin it up more...slowly but surely I'll get there. I should be seeing my surgeon specialist soon...we'll see what he says. At least I don't have to worry about the financials anymore. I should have everything straightened out by spring of this year.
This is gonna be a good year...I can feel it
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